@ScottWI 4 years. Talk to people. That's the key. I have the tools in the toolbox, I just need the willingness to fix it. I have a wonderful Employee Assistance Program. I know I said I got nothing from AA. I got one thing. Through all my embarrassment about being there, not wanting to be seen by the members of my community. I realized one thing, they're just like me. Talking to people is the key. I have them, this group, and one other.
I'm expecting a rough couple of days. I will go on my own until and/or if it's not medically safe. I have a wife, who I don't deserve but sticks by me through good times and bad, by my side.
Sober is they key and I have found the door. Time to open it again