it's incredible how "normal" you feel (as your life is falling apart) when you're in fact drinking your body to death. i've heard doctors say organ failures are silent but deadly syndromes. you feel nothing until it's too late. and i heard in AA of many who died, who had no symptoms until they were hospitalized when it was irreversibly too late. i guess that's where i'm at now. i feel fine physically, but my blood results have all sorts of alarm bells ringing. at 33yrs old. i guess i'm at the point i have no other... [take a swig of beer]... option but to quit. what a disgrace. addiction is powerful. worries me to death. literally, i guess...