Originally Posted by
whopper 
I also do have something else to add. When I do drink I find it as being an afrodesiac. Meaning for me, it is like I took viagra or something like that, and of course the feeling which comes with it. It is very addicting, to feel frisky and to be excited. I can't help it but feel this way when I drink which leads me to continue drinking. To think about sex all the time is just crazy, but this is how it makes me feel..
All the more reason to quit. As several have already suggested, you should really consider contacting a detox/rehab facility in your area or at least seeing a doctor. Alcohol causes all kinds of mental and physical problems. Nearly all of them can be solved but not until you stop drinking. That needs to be your sole focus if you want to get better.