It's so good to meet you, Blankspace. I'm very glad you've decided to make this big change in your life. I once drank the way you do, but did nothing about it. Even when I embarrassed myself & put myself in dangerous situations. I ended up dependent on it, with a ruined life. This doesn't have to happen to you.
We're here to help - and whenever you're ready - we know you can get free.