Originally Posted by
Blankspace87 
I'm increasingly scared by the way my life, relationships, work, finances, and mood are being defined by alcohol.
Welcome to SR Blankspace. I think your statement quoted above pretty clearly summarizes things. The fact that alcohol is "defining" anything in your life is quite a scary premise indeed. I was in exactly that place not all that long ago in my life too and it was terrifying to be honest - especially towards the end.
What you need to know is that you don't have to let alcohol define anything for you, and you'll meet lots of people here that can show you exactly how we did the same. As scary as it seems, it is quite possible to remove alcohol from your life and life a full, healthy, enjoyable one.