Originally Posted by
GerandTwine 
Or is IT fooling me that I have no memory of that sensation. Should I try harder to practice "shifting" and try harder to bring back what that old sensation felt like so I can truly be at home again with an unwanted desire that has no connection to my voluntary muscles?
GT
Clarification:
When I say "unwanted desire" above, I am not talking about someone who has the desire and wishes they didn't have it because that wish is the AV fooling its host. I am talking about someone who does not have the desire, and is wondering if they would like to acquire it either for the first time or regain it after it has been extinguished by the passage of time and the eternal presence of the Big Plan.