I of course, want better for my children. It's almost funny...but it's not. This is my reality right now. And I am slowly recognizing how terrible things are, but my sensitivity is so delayed/numbed from years of this it's extremely hard for me to make sense of it all. I am in the thick of it and it's hard to see clearly . I rely heavily on SR and the strong friendships in my life to help guide me. My self doubt is so strong I annoy myself! Believe me, I've read my words. I've read my words from almost 2 years ago. Waiting and hoping for change has done nothing to improve the situation. Actually, it's probably worse. So now, I am working towards making the change. I'm just not there yet.... but I want to be !!!
