odd isn't it....of the two of you, HE is actually the more consistent. he showed you who he is, what he is about, and he stuck to it.
what's missing is your acceptance of the situation. of his condition. of WHO he IS.
we are powerless over alcohol and our lives have become unmanageable.
unmanageable (ʌnˈmænɪdʒəbəl)
adj
difficult or impossible to control, use, or manipulate.