Thankyou for explaining that to me Soberlicious. What I get from your post is that, the AV never goes away not even after a lengthy period of abstaining. I also get that you need all the elements of AVRT to be successful, recognition and seperation. It was very helpful to me when you said "the Beast and I were one and the same in my mind" . This is the crux of it for me, seperation from the Beast desire to drink and my desire to abstain. I must see the Beast as separate from me. I might use some visualisation to help with this. Does anybody else do that?? Or is it a silly idea? Just think that if I can imagine/picture my Beast as a separate entity (I know it's not actually) it might be helpful.
Where I live there are a couple of people I know who are self recovered. This used to confuse me alot because of what I had learnt in my past recovery method. I too am grateful that Trimpey put his findings together in his book. I'm also grateful for SR and this forum it's amazing.