Hi GerandTwine, yes oxygen, that's exactly what it feels like to my Beast. IT is scared that IT will "die" if IT cant convince me to drink alcohol. And as I understand so far my Beast is a misguided addicted survival drive that will do anything IT can to get me to physically drink alcohol...to survive. Me on the other hand, why would I want to continue drinking and destroying myself ?? I don't. I think I might have something here!! Did I finally just kinda get it?? I need to make the I/ IT seperation. I need to know that any thoughts of future alcohol/drugs use come from my Beast (which wants to survive at my expense!) via my AV. The feelings that are generated by my Beast cause me a little more trouble identifying and separating from that's one reason I'm continuing my therapy. However I think IT causes me to feel mainly negative stuff like anxiety/fear, anger, and the restlessness/ boredom described in the book is very familiar to me too. I hope I'm learning. I've got a couple of days off work so I can spend a bit more time on SR and finish the book. And what then...make a Big Plan...I'm going to say yes I will make one...I'd be stupid not too seeing as I don't want to drink again. IT will be "SCARED" if i make a Big Plan. I will be FREE! Thanks GerandTwine.