Missy, I'm glad you found us and posted.
I hope you are ready to make the decision to stop drinking. While it might help if your husband supported you, many of us are in your position. Ultimately, this is something we must choose to do for ourselves. And, it's normal to feel anxious and angry in the first days and weeks of stopping drinking. If you stick with it, the feelings will diminish and you will begin to feel better. I think it's also important to remember that recovery is more than just stopping drinking. I had to make many lifestyle changes in order to support my recovery.