I think I'd see a DR too before I went back to drinking.
This is what your AV would have you believe:
In retrospect, I got along much better when drinking if considering my general mood and quality of life.
This is the reality:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...p-my-wine.html
Reading your first post again it seems to me these problems have been around a while - drinking didn't seem to fix them for you the first time around, and as much as you or we might want it too, alcohol won't fix it again this time.
I do empathize - it took me a reasonably long time to deal with my underlying issues and various physical ailments - much of my first year - but I got there in the end.
There is light at the end of the tunnel WT, providing you keep walking the right way
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