Tammy's blog made me smile GerandTwine because she describes both of my brains too . I especially liked that she called it her "booze brain" I have one of those. I often feel alone with this "battle" especially since I left the RGM. I believed that there was nowhere else to go...so I would just embrace my addiction and cope with it the best I could. I could relate to Trimpey when he spoke about this. Secular connections gives me hope . I'm continuing my reading of RR and so far so good. I will learn to recognise my AV, IT'S dialogue and IT'S feelings just as Tammy and all of you have.