Well, I wasn't sure what the expect really. I like this counselor and think she will work well for me.
Definitely talking out of two sides of his mouth. One minutes he said he wants out, the next that he loves me and wants to make it work. (He left about 3 months ago, for a week, to get his head straight.) It has left me with huge trust issues. And to hear that again, after he came back... I can't unhear it no matter how I try, even as he tells me he wants to make it work.
Im just floundering over here. Logically I know I can end this at any time. Take back my power to put an end to it. Take control. But I feel paralyzed. I don't want to.
Man if logic and emotions could line up life would be easy.
Edited to add: I also know he's floundering too, and that his life is also crashing. Instead of bonding us, its just trashed us hard.