Thank you for caring GT it means alot to me. I have been drinking I chose to. Have been reading New Cure book too. BF has results of scan on his enlarged liver today he looks very weak and ill. He had his pancreas removed in 2011. I don't think he'll be around to much longer. He is only 54. Yes I do want to be sober and live a sober life GT you have given me some hope by posting thank you so much. I'm going to start again today.