My brain keeps looking for an escape
Yeah mine did too - it also wanted everything to be instantly ok with everyone I'd ever let down.
Thanks drinkin thinkin.
I learned the power of patience and the rewards of hard work when I got sober and I'm still thankful for that today.
Give it time shortstop. Start rebuilding your life. Try and move on from the instant gratification we get used to from the bottle and just keep woking on yourself and your recovery...
That way no matter what happens, you'll be ready for it
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