I started this journey as a complete non-achiever. My life had crashed on take off. I could not point to any accomplishments, in fact I had lost the ability to think and reason. I was terribly lonely and afraid. I couldn't socialise. Even with alcohol I couldn't socialise because I was so anti-social in my behaviour.
So I eventually found myself in AA. For the first time I found some people I could relate to. And I think the connecting with others is an important human need which I had not been able to meet up till then. But I still wasn't suited to the real world.
I remember talking to my sponsor about it. How I found "small talk" difficult and boring. Just a matter of practice he told me. Rejoining the human race is what AA is all about, and that is true enough. In my early AA I was right into "deep and meaningful". Ok with another AA but enough to bore the pants off anyone else.
Then I think this thing we call a spiritual experience began to happen, and my outlook changed. New ideas took the place of old, and one of those was interest in my fellows. Socialising, with an actual interest in the people around me, actually listening to them and talking less about myself, seemed to help me feel connected.
Since then I have felt more and more a part of the world that I was once so afraid of. Now it is a warm and welcoming place with many nice people. Quite different to how I used to be.
I don't know what you should do Che, but what I did was work the steps and adopt the AA way of life.