Originally Posted by Miramira

Ok so no massage. I decided I wanted a hair cut and walked into town to see if they could fit me in. When they said they were booked out tears welled up in my eyes. Too self conscious today to let a stranger touch me. Now sitting on the beach crying. Think when my son goes I lose the drive to keep it together and try and be happy. All the sadness comes pouring out if me, the loneliness becomes very acute. I have no appetite and am smoking like an idiot. And I just have to sit through it. Grit my teeth and grin and bare it and hope that it will pass and that I find joy in some other moment.
HEAVY! Sorry.