I'm really sorry you have so much on your plate Normi.
I can really recommend some of the readings here, as well as the crisis numbers if you want someone to help.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ease-read.html
There is of course an amazing reservoir of help and support here too
Somedays it's all I can do to get through the day and crawl into bed. We have to stay sober but it doesn't always need to be graceful.
I gain a lot of strength from this community. They've seen me through some dark nights.
I'm glad you're with us
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