Originally Posted by
BrendaChenowyth 
Edit: I'm a grown up grown-up now.. my big girl actions have big girl consequences..
That's right, and you are a sober grown-up too. Which means that you can take steps to move forward and put this situation behind you. Staying sober and putting yourself in a safe place to do so ( both mentally and physically ) should be your #1 priority.
Every single one of us did things we wish we wouldn't have when we were actively drinking, some of us did very bad things. We need to remember who we were to keep things in perspective, but dwelling/obsessing only hurts us.