Yes, I see that plainly now you have pointed that out, how the tense changed!
The thought of drinking holds no pleasure for me now, it hasn't for years, I don't associate drink with pleasure, but I am aware, it is all my Beast wants, the reason for it's existence.
The thing I liked about AVRT, was just as you stated, I didn't have to spend time dwelling on it these past five years, after I made my Big Plan, any Beast activity, disconnected myself right away, until it became non-existent. And it did become non existent. Was a bit taken by surprise, at first when it popped up again, but I suppose that's understandable given the circumstances I am dealing with now, it was bound to take It's chance.
I do find self-talk very important, so it's massively important I stay in the past tense with anything to do with past drinking just to get the message across that there will NEVER be any debating about future use. Thanks again for pointing that out.