Yes, thats where I stole that analogy from, the book! Saying I wanted to "numb out" bad feelings was my prime excuse for drinking, and when I read what he had to say about that, it brought me to my senses and I knew for certain I was fooling myself with that one, and I didn't actually want to be numb, or feel nothing, I wanted to feel good! Which sold me on AVRT, because I found everything he said about drinking to get the buzz, and no other reason, to be true when I honestly looked at myself. Which of course lead me to seperate the true me from the Beast, and freed me from the parasite.