Sorry to hear about your situation, how dreadful! I understand why you are feeling depressed because of the significant consequences that come with DUI's. And as much as it is true that not hurting yourself or others is true, I understand how it still sucks. One of my biggest fears in life was getting a DUI, and maybe that is why that is one thing I didn't do when drinking and blacking out. I also feel for you that this is happening over the holidays, what a bummer. If I was in your position, I would google a book about how to cope with a DUI and survive its aftermath. That is what would be most helpful for me. Good luck!