Originally Posted by ScottFromWI

I think you'll have to answer that for yourself anonimuser. There's a plethora of red flags in your post that I'd point out though

1. You put yourself in a position to be "influenced" to drink. Only you can decide if you are going to drink or not, so you most likely need to either avoid situations in the first place. Or only attend if you feel 100% confident that you will refuse any offers for a drink. Its your sobriety, you need to protect it.

2. If you were "mostly" pretending to drink, what were you doing the rest of the time? Rhetorical question, but think about it for a minute

3. "Controlling yourself" is not sobriety in my book, even if it's just a few sips to appease a crowd. Alcoholics cannot "control" their drinking by definition.