Beached- the anxiety or fear of doing something positive- but subjectively scary is often worse than actually doing it. Fear of the fear. Kind of like getting angry at being angry. Worse still getting angry because I predict I will get angry. Talk about self fulfilling prophecy. The anxiety may not be directly related to alcohol. That was surely on your mind- why else post here? I think you are concerned about the reasons for your anxiety. I could say to you- it is all natural, do not worry about it! Everybody does that! Is it and do they? I don't know- I'm not those people. I would suggest if you have concerns over anxiety- seek out appropriate support. You have an awareness- so this gives you leverage in doing something about it. PJ