Yep. You absolutely can do it.
Go to bed sober tonight. I put a little notepad by my bed and before I go to bed, write down three things I'm grateful for.
Keep talking to us.
Why do you think you are having trouble? Or I guess I should ask, why do you feel your trouble is worse than every other sober alcoholic?
I know there is no life event that alcohol can't make 10,000% worse. That is my truth. The alcohol magnifies all the bad feelings once that first couple euphoric hours are over. It shuts up my brain for a little while, but in the long run it created a vicious loop I couldn't escape and a feeling of doom whenever I wasn't drinking. I'm happy to have left that behind. It does get better with continuous sober time, but you have to get it continuously, not now and then.