Hi guys! Back on day one for what is probably the hundredth time... early recovery is always so hard. I know my family friends and boyfriend are being supportive to me but I still feel guilty. Back to being sick/throwing up/ having panic attacks/sweats and shakes again. I was drinking like crazy to deal with the stress of my job and other things happening in my life. why can't I have a better way to cope? how do I find it? So tired of always ending up back in the stages of withdrawal. Can I be a member of the November 2016 class?