I can only share my experience. I've had many periods of 'recovery' in the last 13 years. Most of them were really just interruptions between benders of 3, 6, 9 months etc. I had 2 years at one point that I guess was the closest I ever came to being in recovery. I'll have 90 on Tuesday. Where am I going with this? I frankly have no real solid idea of who I am. Never really have. I know what I am drunk....and I know that isn't the genuine 'me'. I don't know that I've ever been fully 'me'. And I know for sure there is no way to know what I'll grow into at 90 days. I do know that I'll try not to label myself, compare myself, judge myself and try to categorize myself. I'm just trying to live each day as it comes. Try to be honest with myself and others. Try to understand my feelings and reactions. Hopefully enough days will add up and I'll actually get to know myself. Then I can become me.....I hope.