Lofty
Obviously I don;t know why you relapsed but I think you really need a plan.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html
There will always be a reason to drink - a good plan can 'role play' those situations and give you other options ahead of time.
Again, I don't know what it's like off SR, but if SR is your main support, I think you also need to use your support network more.
Posting after you drink is not using this community to it's full extent. Theres so much support and so many wonderful ideas here.
I understand that when part of us wants to drink it's hard to put that desire off...
but the more we fan that flame in is that wants something different, the bigger that flame will grow
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-recovery.html
make it now...not soon
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