That's sad Bimini.
basically I could get a paperclip for Xmas and it would go on the wall to be treasured for someone thinking of me.
Behindblueeyes- let me tell you a little trick I did over the summer, when I get my weird heat/sun/summer based depression. Maybe you can reverse it.
I was always in and out of a cold shower- now I think you could bundle up if you are cold- I know heat and sun makes me feel fatigued and like I am about to drop at any moment. My anxiety blows up to epic proportions in the summer so I had a dim room and had my laptop on a video with just rain coming down so that I could hear it, and I even had snowy pictures up...
Reverse all that and maybe brighten your indoor environment with imitation flowers and photos of sunny days or something like that?