Originally Posted by
Justme2016 
I know I am very lucky I need to do just that... permanent recovery but I feel like a loser and can't stop thinking of what could have happened.
We've all done things that we regret when we were drinking JustMe, including drunk driving. I won't downplay the consequences you could have suffered, or those around you when you did it - but it is in the past. Worrying about what you "could" have done or what "could"have happened won't help you get sober - which is what you need to focus on 100%. Whether you are a binge drinker or a daily drinker ( or a daily binge drinker! ) the first step is admitting/accepting the problem. If you are ready to to that there are quite a few programs/plans you can follow to make sober living a permanent part of your life. But it is work and you must follow through on it each and every day.