Many in my family have mental illness, myself included.
The only way that I could face my truths was with another alcoholic.
I could never be 100% honest with a psychiatrist.
Perhaps that's why working the 12 steps with a sponsor provided a solution to my problem(s) when psychotherapy could not.
Or, maybe, I had simply reached a point of desperation.
Willing to go to any lengths.
Whatever.
It works for me.
Not saying you need to go to AA.
But, I would highly recommend some sort of face-to-face help.
Accepting the truth really can set us free.