Hi Cow. Since you asked I am outta my mind right now. I keep getting my crap together and then screw up almost as if I like getting my butt kicked or something. This last time I made it 40 days off the smokes with not so much as a puff. I feel off due to 5 days of extreme anger (I thought it would help...damn menopause)I am on day 2 again and have a headache and can't think straight. My throat and lungs burn. What the hell am I thinking that I keep doing this to myself?
I will catch back up with you later when I can string a sentence together. I think we largely create our own realities. Might as well make it good. As above so below, as within so without.
Hugs Cow.