I really am a badass! I did it again!
Thankyou Freshstart, I really do feel like the world has opened up.
Same thing as yesterday, except, I found a long forgotton bottle of JD in the house. The Beast really sprang into action. "Just drink it, it's expensive, it will be the last time"
Only trouble is, I never drink now, and I will never change my mind the Big Plan has already been made, no negotiations.
Down the sink it went, with a smile on my face and a distant howl in the midbrain lol
If I did it once, and did it twice, I can do it forever.
As soon as it was drained down the sink, the Beast quieted.
It's not even a case of fighting the urge, it's a case of ignoring the urge and sticking to my own true self
It really is an awesome feeling!!