Good luck Boblardo and good to see you are serious about getting yourself to a meeting, realisation that change was needed and that it had to come from within was crucial for myself and for every other person on here who is working their recovery. That change is possible for us all but you have to want it more than anything else and do whatever it takes.
Life without it frightened the living daylights out of me too but believe me it can be done and it truly is the best thing we can ever do for ourselves and our families.
So much to see so much to do - alcohol doesn't have to feature and it certainly doesn't make anything better, just a whole lot worse in the long run - it's not that great in all honesty - this side of the fence is miles better.
Make those little bobs proud of you.
Look forward to seeing you around on here - good idea to stick close to this place too on a regular basis for plenty of support - join the monthly class, found this to be a great benefit when I joined the November class last year.