Thanks SR.
I walked around for hours yesterday and all day today as well. I am still too much of a nervous wreck to even try and sleep. I hate every waking moment. I wish I had just one single family member or something to help me through this, or a supportive partner.... just any damn one IRL... I really cannot mentally handle all this stress. The past 2 years of medical tests and awaiting results and draining all my savings are killing me. I can't even enjoy life. It's no wonder I have two kinds of depression. I don't need depression meds, I need this s*** to GO AWAY.