Originally Posted by
boblardo 
Thanks BB, the next newcomers meeting is on Saturday, there are other non newcomer meetings on Monday & Tuesday but didn't know if they were the right ones!!!
The thought of my wife not being in my future absolutely terrifies me, I need to take that step!!
You can go to any meeting (except gender specific ones for the opposite sex of course). Open means anyone who's alcoholic can go, and also friends or family or anyone else interested in AA . Closed would be just alcoholics. So again, you could go to either open or closed meetings. If your wife wanted to know what goes on there she could come with you to an open meeting some time (my partner never wanted to. I think he's a bit scared he might get sober by accident if he went lol).
Hope you manage to lean into the fear and go get some help and support. When you go, I'd recommend buying the little Living Sober book. It's full of wisdom for everyday situations and dealing with life and emotions as they come up.
BB