Hi, blueberry. welcome. AA was a godsend in the early days of my sobriety. But...longer term, it wasn't for me. Among other things, I found it difficult to hear the "when I drank, this happened" stories. So, I went to different meetings and found one where the sharing was more low-key. Assume you have tried this? I have been drink-free since 2013. AA has helped many, many people, but there are other methods. Have you checked out SMART or LifeRing?