I already know how it will go because I did all of this for female issues last year. Months and months of waiting, bank account draining testing, waiting, testing and dying of anxiety the entire time and being preoccupied with all of it all of the time. I won't be able to enjoy anything without this hanging over me liker a black cloud now.
I don't even care what the last 10 months would have been, my sobriety has not been rewarding. Only thinking that maybe, it could have been worse is not a thing that makes me feel good about any of it. I feel it is just more fruitless labor on my part.
I mean I see people on here going "I have severe anxiety, it's so severe, severe" everything's severe.... over things that turn out fine then they go ahead and keep drinking.
I quit drinking and now this. Of course I am an anxious wreck, who wouldn't be?