Dream that I drank.
I woke from a dream at 2:30 am. In it there were words that I read that said I was destined to drink forever - if I wouldn't have woken up so upset and wrote them down right away I could have they were so vivid. I thought in my mind - well I have the vodka, better start on the wine. It was my favorite wine with screw top and right before I woke up I was taking my first swig out of the bottle - I hadn't swallowed because I was thinking about my sobriety but I think I planned on doing it.
It was so real that I had to really think "did I drink last night?"
BLAH! I have never had dreams like this in the past.