Old 10-27-2016, 06:29 PM
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gbriezy
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A Seemingly Neverending List of Things I Do Not Miss

So this may or may not be helpful to those reading, but it feels cathartic for me to list these items out loud, especially after officially blocking my AexBf's phone number today (he texted me today after one month of NC).

This is kind of word vomit, but I've kept this list in my phone for reference when I'm feeling nostalgic, weak, or completely unrealistic.

Things I do not miss:
  • Waking up in the middle of the night to find you'd spilled your last beer all over the bed
  • Constantly trying to figure out if you're cheating
  • Beer cans and bottles all over the apartment no matter how often I seem to clean
  • Your constant criticism of my body and mind
  • Never making me feel like I am enough
  • Feeling worried about how drunk and rude you will get at work/friend happy hours
  • Your constant insults of my career aspirations
  • Worrying about whether you will be too drunk to walk down the back stairwell on your own for a cigarette after I've gone to sleep
  • Your inability to maintain a steady paycheck
  • Countless instances of physical violence
  • Debilitating health problems ESPECIALLY for a 29 year old man
  • Socially rude and abrasive (because you're drunk)
  • Smoking 1.5 packs a day with severe asthma
  • Waking up in a panic in the middle of the night to help you find the inhaler you misplaced while drunk
  • So many money problems; bill collectors calling day and night
  • Treating my anxiety like a joke
  • Thoughts of you consuming 90% of my thoughts
  • Your ability to hurt me like no one else
  • You wearing the same underwear for multiple days in a row; you not caring about basic hygiene
  • Never having sex
  • You being constantly drunk or high (and acting like being high all the time isn't a big deal)
  • Your refusal to enroll in a health insurance program despite significant health concerns
  • Your frequent irritability and freak outs over the smallest inconveniences
  • You are always one car accident away from not being able to pay rent
  • You not caring when I cry
  • You never buying me a birthday or Christmas present (excuse: too broke)
  • Selfish and irritable
  • Worrying about the fact that you haven't filed taxes for the past three years
  • Never feeling like you're on my team
  • Unrealistic
  • Your refusal to engage in even basic exercise
  • Blaming me for every problem in your life
  • Never wants to go outside
  • You getting wasted every time we visit your parents
  • Not as attractive as you used to be (because of the drinking)
  • Acting like small favors are massive inconveniences
  • Always making me feel like you'd leave me if you found someone better
  • Finding your puke all over the bathroom in the morning
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