Old 10-26-2016, 09:07 PM
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BullDog777
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i've had bouts of long term sobriety before. I remember still wanting to drink at 18 months. I went on a 4 year bender shortly after that.

This last time, I'm at 8 months and only think of it in times of severe stress...no physical cravings at all. This was my last bottom though. The doctor said i'm out of chances. Somewhere in every other time i ever tried to get sober i think i always had the thought that i could go back and have one more recovery in me. Not this time.

what came after that for me was something i had never experienced before. An acceptance that this way, is the only way I can ever truly live. After that, it was pretty easy to let go.
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