"....I know some people will say once an alcoholic has 1 drink, they can’t stop themselves from drinking. I don’t fully agree with this...."
Not speaking for everyone but its the first drink that gets me drunk.
I used to drive on auto pilot all the time and often during blackouts. Several crashes, license taken, one year ban, ambulances, court, insurance companies.... and then the moral dilemma.... and then forget it all and start again.
There's lots of reasons for getting cleaned up. That's just one.
Take care of yourself.