Originally Posted by
romanerin2011 
And I know Saul slaughtered many Christians but I figured he did that before he was saved. I did all this when I was supposedly saved which is why I struggle with my salvation. But I am still sober from alcohol and pornography. Oh yea did I mention that? I've also been addicted to porn for 16 years. My mind is corrupted beyond repair I feel sometimes.
very true about saul. now, lets look at 1John1:8-10
8 If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. 9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. 10 If we claim we have not sinned, we make him out to be a liar and his word is not in us.
emphasis on verse 9.
you FEEL your mind is corrupted beyond repair.
not all feelings are the truth.