No one around me thinks I have a problem and would laugh if I told them honestly how I feel .
Hi NoProblem92! Glad you joined us.
How do you know no one thinks you have a problem? Have you talked with anyone?
I think that non-alcoholic friends tend to brush it off. They'll casually dismiss the idea because they don't understand or it makes them uncomfortable.
It sounds to me like you have a problem.
Fortunately, this is a problem that can be solved: quit drinking.
It has helped me to have support. And, it has helped me that I do not live with anyone who would encourage me to continue drinking - no one to say "oh, have one glass".
Keep reading on here: lots of information and support if you need it.