Originally Posted by
romanerin2011 
I had control over my life, I just don't know what happened. I absolutely hate myself, I was finally getting to that point of serenity in my life. Forgetting all the terrible things I've done. Now I'm back to square one. And especially doing something like this, what kind of Christian man does this is what I keep asking myself.
just because were Christians doesn't mean were perfect nor does it mean satan cant attack us from all sides. that's why we have to have the full armor of God on at all times
Ephesians 6:10-18
10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
18 And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people.