Drillbit

Hi,

I just wanted to post this as I don't know where else to turn. In the last 2 years I've attempted to stop drinking 3 times, I managed to give up twice for 7 weeks and then for 10 weeks.

I started drinking again about 3 months ago and have drank every day since, I felt like my life was starting to fall apart so took the doctor up on his offer of antidepressants (citalopram) that was about 2 months ago, in the last few weeks I've started drinking in the mornings as early as 8am.

I went out yesterday and drank a 70cl bottle of vodka which is about twice as much as I'd usually drink. I feel worse today than I ever have before, I didn't get out of bed until 4:30pm, I haven't eaten and I'm scared for my life.

I don't know what I'm looking to get from writing this but I don't know what else to do.