Sleepie, please try to see the positives in your life. You have a lot more than most, including myself.
You have a boyfriend and his family (companionship)
You have a work assignment;albeit stressful (employment)
You have food to eat (pizza)
You have 10 months of sobriety (awesome job)!
I understand all of the struggles you have mentioned in your threads, and am not making light of them by any means- I get that you have struggled, but we all face adversity and tough times.
If you want to find happiness, it has to come from within you. You can not expect it will come from others- or you will face disappointment your entire life.
Try making a simple gratitude list every morning before you start your day- even if the only thing you can think of is "I'm grateful I have another day on this earth". Start small and plant the seed and you'll see how quickly things can be different. When you proclaim what you don't want, you attract more of that.