Mirage and PBC, sorry I missed your posts. They were on the next page. Mirage, I kinda know the feelings you are having, but they definitely affected my wife more than me. You've done a super job raising your kids and should be proud. Plus, they will always need you! That part doesnt go away. You will be fine, I am sure.
PBC, I must've missed your post about your friend, but prayers sent just the same.