Checking in this afternoon. I have drank for the past four days and today I woke up feeling sad and shaky and sick. My head is full of negative self talk and I can't stand the person I have allowed myself to become again. But enough. Someone pretty special reminded me today that I have worth, I am lovable and I deserve forgiveness. Alcohol really messes with your mind....not a news flash I know. In the span of four days I have become so depressed...nothing remotely like the Samantha I was (and will be again)
I am on my way home now with some French Toast tea and some hot soup. I'm going to spend the afternoon taking care of myself and posting here if I need help.
Thanks for being here. I am lucky to know each of you and I am so proud of all of us for kicking the disease of alcoholism in the behind every single day. ❤️❤️